Entre Ovar e Aveiro, 23/03/2010, 12 h

     Começo a pensar ser o deus das pequenas coisas. Apenas porque as grandes coisas não são comigo. Apenas as pequenas. Pequenas relações e subsequentes pequenas desilusões, pequenas vitórias, pequenas perdas. Não consigo ser grande. A diferença é que em vez de uma folha castanha nas costas que faz as monções virem a tempo, tenho uma borboleta, que quando se agita provoca tempestades no que estava pacífico...
     Mais uma peuqena desilusão, mais uma cicatriz. Daquelas que duram, na alma! Atitudes irreflectidas de alguém que já tinha idade para ter juízo. Mas que se há-de fazer? Este tipo de negócios são sempre os mais arriscados, só um em mil corre bem. E não há seguros nem rede de segurança. Quem cai, bate bem forte. No fundo. Outra vez. Mas é essa a caracteristica principal que nos define como pessoas. A capacidade de cair e levantar. Alguns não conseguem, outros fizeram disso uma obra de arte. Quase que nem caem, tal a rapidez com que se levantam. Eu? Eu levanto-me sempre! Mas às vezes, na solidão nocturna volto a cair uma e outra vez. Até achar que já passou. Que me posso levantar de vez. Que posso voltar à luta constante.
     Se tropeçares, tenta não cair. Se caires, levanta-te. Se não conseguires, rasteja, mas não pares de seguir em frente!

     "If darkness blinds, I will shine to guide you!"

"Abandonei-me..."

Abandonei-me ao magnetismo,
e neste encantamento fui reentrante
És impar no universo
Teus cabelos densos, excelsos
Teu olhar que fulgura
Quando na jocosa boémia, me cobiças e possuis
O meu corpo às tuas mãos rendido, vencido
Não conjugo o somos, não temos ligação
Eu sou, tu és, cada um no seu mundo
Não somos união, mas fragmento
Não temos definição
És flama, tortura, intempérie que me deixa
a alma em prostração
e a mente em desordem
Arruíno-me no corpo teu, descubro-me no leito teu
Olvido-me de quem sou eu
Anseio-te e repudio-te
Nesta ruína de me render à tentação
Devaneio-me contigo
Consumo-me e invento-me
Desdenho o entendimento
Deleito a gustação do teu veneno nos lábios
E languidamente padeço nos teus braços
Ao som da tua voz falaciosa
Que me converte tua refém
Que me coroa e me acorrenta
E me abate de tanto te almejar
Amargo na tua privação
E se porém, algum dia te destronar
Não acharei de evocar
Sentimentos silenciosos, Raquel Fragoso

American pie

A long, long time ago...


I can still remember

How that music used to make me smile.

And I knew if I had my chance

That I could make those people dance

And, maybe, they'd be happy for a while.



But february made me shiver

With every paper I'd deliver.

Bad news on the doorstep;

I couldn't take one more step.



I can't remember if I cried

When I read about his widowed bride,

But something touched me deep inside

The day the music died.



So bye-bye, miss american pie.

Drove my chevy to the levee,

But the levee was dry.

And them good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye

Singin', "this'll be the day that I die.

"this'll be the day that I die."



Did you write the book of love,

And do you have faith in God above,

If the Bible tells you so?

Do you believe in rock 'n roll,

Can music save your mortal soul,

And can you teach me how to dance real slow?



Well, I know that you're in love with him

`cause I saw you dancin' in the gym.

You both kicked off your shoes.

Man, I dig those rhythm and blues.



I was a lonely teenage broncin' buck

With a pink carnation and a pickup truck,

But I knew I was out of luck

The day the music died.



I started singin',

"bye-bye, miss american pie."

Drove my chevy to the levee,

But the levee was dry.

Them good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye

And singin', "this'll be the day that I die.

"this'll be the day that I die."



Now for ten years we've been on our own

And moss grows fat on a rollin' stone,

But that's not how it used to be.

When the jester sang for the king and queen,

In a coat he borrowed from james dean

And a voice that came from you and me,



Oh, and while the king was looking down,

The jester stole his thorny crown.

The courtroom was adjourned;

No verdict was returned.

And while Lennon read a book of marx,

The quartet practiced in the park,

And we sang dirges in the dark

The day the music died.



We were singing,

"bye-bye, miss american pie."

Drove my chevy to the levee,

But the levee was dry.

Them good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye

And singin', "this'll be the day that I die.

"this'll be the day that I die."



Helter skelter in a summer swelter.

The birds flew off with a fallout shelter,

Eight miles high and falling fast.

It landed foul on the grass.

The players tried for a forward pass,

With the jester on the sidelines in a cast.



Now the half-time air was sweet perfume

While the sergeants played a marching tune.

We all got up to dance,

Oh, but we never got the chance!

`cause the players tried to take the field;

The marching band refused to yield.

Do you recall what was revealed

The day the music died?



We started singing,

"bye-bye, miss american pie."

Drove my chevy to the levee,

But the levee was dry.

Them good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye

And singin', "this'll be the day that I die.

"this'll be the day that I die."



Oh, and there we were all in one place,

A generation lost in space

With no time left to start again.

So come on: jack be nimble, jack be quick!

Jack flash sat on a candlestick

Cause fire is the devil's only friend.



Oh, and as I watched him on the stage

My hands were clenched in fists of rage.

No angel born in hell

Could break that satan's spell.

And as the flames climbed high into the night

To light the sacrificial rite,

I saw satan laughing with delight

The day the music died



He was singing,

"bye-bye, miss american pie."

Drove my chevy to the levee,

But the levee was dry.

Them good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye

And singin', "this'll be the day that I die.

"this'll be the day that I die."



I met a girl who sang the blues

And I asked her for some happy news,

But she just smiled and turned away.

I went down to the sacred store

Where I'd heard the music years before,

But the man there said the music wouldn't play.



And in the streets: the children screamed,

The lovers cried, and the poets dreamed.

But not a word was spoken;

The church bells all were broken.

And the three men I admire most:

The father, son, and the holy ghost,

They caught the last train for the coast

The day the music died.



And they were singing,

"bye-bye, miss american pie."

Drove my chevy to the levee,

But the levee was dry.

And them good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye

Singin', "this'll be the day that I die.

"this'll be the day that I die."



They were singing,

"bye-bye, miss american pie."

Drove my chevy to the levee,

But the levee was dry.

Them good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye

Singin', "this'll be the day that I die."
 
Don Mclean - America pie